Getting into the REAL Spirit of the Season!

Lately, I've noticed that people just don't get what this season is really about!

As a child we come under the impression that Xmas is all about the presents, the tree, and the holly jolly Santa Claus.

We then grow up and discover that all that is covering up the true reason for the season.

I think that too many people have forgotten this little fact.

There's a song called Christmas with a capital C that talks about the saying "Happy Holidays" One part of the song says that there are a lot of holidays in February, but you don't say Happy Holidays, You say what it is.

The thing that the song says that I like the most is that Happy Holidays is said because the do not want to admit the real meaning of the holiday. And after 2000 years Jesus Christ is still intimidating people!

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Happy Birthday Jami!!!!

Today is my little sister's 11th birthday.

I can remember when she was born.....Oh! that was a crazy day!

The day she was born. I was 9 years old and in the 3rd grade. We were in inside recess (it was too cold outside) when a voice came over the announcements saying " Will you please send Jennifer to the office, her dad is here to pick her up." I sat there confused for a moment and then I realized what was going on. "My mom's having a baby!!!" I yelled to others as I left the school.

My brother, who was 6 at that time, and I were waiting very impatiently at the hospital for hours, until finally we were sent home with our grandparents to wait for the news. At about 6, the phone rang and the first question that came to me was "Well, it is a boy or a girl?" My grandma smiled and said, "It's a girl!" I was thrilled! I began skipping around the house yelling "I have a baby sister!!" My brother, devastated by the idea of not having a little brother, laid his head down and began to cry.

Over the years, I think my brother has become used to having a little sister as have I
I hope she has a great Birthday!
I LOVE YOU JAMI!!!!!!

Do You Even Know Me!?

• Why do I suddenly feel like an outcast?
• Can you see through me?-----Have I become transparent?---I feel like many can not see me or hear me. I' m a real person too, with thought, cares and feelings! I know that I shouldn't care a whole what other people say or think about me because in the long run they are not what I'm am living for....but I would like to be noticed!
• What is it that is so wrong with me?----I feel like there are people in my life that treat and avoid me like the plague.

I just don't get people sometimes! I guess I am just one of those people who blend in. But I don't want to blend in!

I am a great person and I wanna stand out!!

I'm just not sure I know how!

Picture Perfect.....Ya not so much!

So I was at a dance this weekend, and thrilled to be around all my friends. Yet some of those very friends were the cause of my Winter Formal Fluster. We went out to the lobby to take pictures and all of a sudden I was handed 2 or 3 cameras and heard my so called FRIENDS say "oh Jen's taking the picture!"

What!!!!!!

I was the photographer!

I was going to be on the outside of the camera instead of inside the comfort of the picture!

I kept all of my feelings in until each of the cameras had gotten their shot. I then ran to my boyfriend's arms and let it all out.

I couldn't believe they would do that to me.

I guess this was one of the many moments in life that you question the quality of some your friends. I came to the conclusion that I wasn't as close to them as I originally thought and hoped. It stinks that the conclusion had to punch me in the face.

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Sick as a Dog!....Actually, I think the Dog is in Better Shape!

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Head pounding

Body aching

Movements slowed

Skin pale

Temperature raised

Worried to fall behind

Yet worried to stick it out.

I think the best thing to do

Is to close my eyes and rest.

Impressing Only One!

Are there times in your life that you feel like you don't fit in to "the LOOK" that society has laid out for this world?

• One must be so thin
• One must wear a certain thing
• One must act a certain way.

Why do we have to "fit in"?

There are days in my life that I feel like the Ugly Duckling,


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a character that has been portrayed to children for years upon years. He is the classic example of a creature that feels left out of life simply because he is rejected by his peers.


There are also more modern day interpretations of this classic tale.

For example:

There was a show on television that describes a rather "geeky" girl who was trying to survive in the cutthroat fashion world. This show was titled "Ugly Betty",
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and although I didn't particularly care for the show, I did enjoy the overall concept. I think that the outside of a person judges too abruptly on the looks of people.
Now there are the obvious sayings that could be used as fuel to what I am arguing such as: Don't judge a book by its cover and so on and so on.
But I think that the only way to handle the fact that our world today tends to judge the way we look before they get to truly know us and who we are, is to figure out why such a thing is possibly done.

• These people could feel uncomfortable about themselves and therefore push the ridicule on an easy target.
• They could be so wrapped up in society that they forget that human beings are built with feelings.

Now I am not saying that fashion itself is evil, I am simply saying that there is, perhaps, too much emphasis on it. I think that you should wear what you want. Clothes allow a person to begin to express who they are. However, if you take one bite of a cake, do you now know all the ingredients.
So basically, in all this rambling I am trying to say that being "Cool" ,being "Normal" ,being "Stylish" is overrated. There is one person in this life that we should strive to impress, and that person could care less whether we are wearing $300 jeans or rags that were handed down from our brother. That person is God.
I'm going to leave you with one more thing. There is a chorus popular christian song that says,
"I'm not cool. That's okay. My God loves me anyway. I'm not cool. That's alright. I'm still precious in his sight."

No rules, No schedule, Just Running!

I decided that this year I would give my body a break and not run track. This decision is turning out to be a great choice on my part. The reason for this is that I can now regain the full joy of running again.

I realized that I had lost it in the cross season. I became too worried in what my teammates were thinking of me, or asking myself if I was going too slow and wondering if coach was going to have to stop me.




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Now that I'm on my own I can run just for me. Just to run. I can go as fast or as slow as I want. I can wear what I want without wondering what the others would think. I'm having fun again!

Yet, the downfall is the fact that I miss being part of a team.
I miss being part of a unit. I miss the various people and stories. I feel that without track the have no reason to hang out with me.







So that leaves me to make a choice.

Do I choose avoid being "Trackless" the rest of my years here?

Or do I participate in Cross Country and leave the track time to regain the "fun of the sport"?

My weekly game of musical chairs

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It happens every Tuesday:

I leave lecture and go right to work so my boss can go to lunch.

While I do this all of my friends go and eat their food.

When it is finally time for me to go fill my stomach,I am left with no one to sit with.

Now I know that this shouldn't bother me, but it does!

Not quite sure why. I just feel like I am being judged and evaluated by all of those in the lunchroom.

I guess this is just a sign that my confidence in myself, although better than it once was, is still not up to what it could be.

Or it could simply mean that I am not one of those people that can sit alone at lunch.

The Class is Over, Will the Blog Remain?

I hope that you have all enjoyed wandering over to this blog and reading and replying on my random thoughts and emotions. I really appreciate the opinions I have received on the various subjects that I have chosen to babble on about.
You might be asking yourself "Why is she thanking us for reading?" Well as many of you know, the class, which encouraged the start of this blog, is coming to an end. That leads me to the following choices:

• Go on with the blog just the way it is
• Take the Blog in a whole new direction
• Destroy the Blog and walk away

There is not anything that would make me attempt to preform the task required in number 3. I have put too much effort in this blog to just simply destroy it.

I don't think I like number 2 either. I like my blog just the way it is .

So to answer the question addressed above I reply, I am not saying goodbye to my blog. However, I am very aware that some of you are leaving the blogging world behind and so that is reason for my goodbye note!

Good bye,

And Thanks For Everything!

Trying to brush it off....But the disappointment follows me!

Why does this world have to be filled with disappointment?

Why is it that you can tell yourself that it's OK and it doesn't
matter, but somehow you get crushed anyway?

Why does there always have to be someone out there that is better than you?

I guess, the only true way to go about answering that question is that without competition; there would be no fun in the world.

And If there were 2 winners then that would defeat the purpose. There has to be a loser.

And yes, it is true, there are people in this world that are better than you. The point of life is to use that to better yourself. and keep in mind, someone is out there, saying that very thing, referring to you!

Got a Case of the Nerves!

As you all probably know, I am going to portraying a role in one of the shows playing this weekend. This morning I woke up, stared at the ceiling for a moment and then suddenly realized that it was Thursday, which meant it was opening night!! My heart started beating faster than I thought it ever could and seemed as if it was rattling my entire body! After that initial feeling began to wear off, a feeling of extreme excitement ran over me.

I can't say that I am use to feeling like this. This is my first role here at school and my first real role EVER!!!! A part of me is terrified that I will find some way to mess it up. However, the other part of me is confident that I know my character enough to know what I'm doing.

I hope the second part's right!

Opening that door

I'm sure I am not the only one in this world who has felt the throbbing pain that is left when there is a hole in your life where a person once was. I think it is the natural reaction to push that emotion and pain back. Yet there are times in life when it is triggered. It might be a word, phrase, or saying, or maybe a movie or song. It doesn't even matter what is the source of the triggering. The point is once those gates are open and our emotions flood out of our bodies like in the days of Noah, it is so hard to have them recollected and pushed back again.
Why can't we simply keep that door in our soul shut?Why must it be opened every now and again? Why must we feel that over and over again? Why can't we just nail that room shut and never visit again?
I think we have to except the fact that, as humans, we seem to have the inability to totally forget someone that meant something to you. Ask yourself this: Even though it hurts to reflect on those old thoughts, would you rather live life as though they do not exist.
By reliving these memories you are bringing them back in your life and acknowledging the fact that they did mean something to you. I believe that, in a way humans cease to die because they will also dwell in the minds and hearts of the ones that were closest to them.

If you wanna be my friend!

Last night, I came to the realization that one of my really close friends wasn't quite as close to me as I would have hoped and thought!
It got me thinking about the qualifications of a good friends. This is sort of a Do's and Don't's list, which I believe is known by mostly everyone!

* Always have your friend's back- never let someone hurt of damage them without a fight!
* Always tell them if something about them is bothering you!- by avoiding confrontation, you are only creating more tension.
* Never date an Ex of a friend shortly after the break-up
* Always treat your friend's significant others and friends with respect, even if you dislike them.
* Allow yourself to cool down before approaching your friend about an issue- you don't want to be in a state when you will blow up, yet you also don't want to wait too long.
* Always do what's best for your friend!

Halloween update!

In an earlier blog, I expressed my costume choosing mental block! I thought it would be only proper to tell you the outcome and the costume I ended up with.

Pippi Longstocking!!!!

I came to this choice because I absolutely adored this character as a kid. She was so funny and perky even though she was a little orphan girl. The costume wasn't really that difficult to conjure up.

The wig:

I originally bought a black wig. I then sprayed it with temporary red hair paint. The, with the help of my boyfriend stuck coat hangers in each side to make it stay up.

The rest of it:

For the completion of the outfit, I simple wore overall shorts, a gray T-shirt, mismatching long knee socks and white tennis shoes.

My Reality Check

Last night I had a scary revelation, which I guess I had already known, it just was not very clear until that moment:
The World is full of Pressure!!!!
And what got me to finally expect this fact was my panic attack in Walmart yesterday!..... I needed some items so I made the trip with my roomie. As I was shopping, I decided it would be a smart thing to check my checking balance. That's what triggered the attack! I had only $9 in my account!!!!!.....I was floored! I had been keeping a close eye on my account! How did this happen!? Luckily,my boyfriend had paid me the phone bill earlier that day so I had cash on me. But for some reason, I was really dizzy and couldn't really walk. It was really scary. For the first time I felt how short my life could actually be! I also realized that by constantly reacting to the pressure life throws at me, I am only making that time shorter.

The Faith Within

I haven't done this before, but I thought it might be nice to get some of my work on the blog. And I dying to hear what is thought of this poem because I'm a little unsure myself! It's called "The Faith Within"

I am at your side,

although you ignore me.

I am here to guide,

although you do not follow.

I'm stuck in your head,

no matter how hard you try to erase me.

I hear all of what is said

and I am there to rethink the wrong

Although you may deny me,

I assure you I will never fade.

All I want is for you to see

your faith within.

So there it is .........now give me the truth!!!

Why so shy?

Everyone has that one thing they would change about themselves. For me it would have to be my confidence around others.
I don't like that it takes me so long to open up to someone. Last year someone even held that fact against me. She said "You've been around us for almost 6 months now and you still won't talk!"
I can't explain it. And I can't really change it. I guess we all have a quality about us that is so embedded in our system that no matter how hard we try, we cannot remove it.

My Halloweeny mental block!

This blog is generally focused on the spilling of my thoughts on to the screen. But this time, I need your help! I'm taking my sister around trick-or-treating for Halloween and I have no idea what to dress up as!

In the past, I have taken on the roles of Wednesday Adams and a lady in a masquerade ball. However, for some reason, this year my ideas have come up short. I would appreciate any thoughts you could share on the issue. Although, you have to keep in my that all costume must be family appropriate. I am grateful to all the help I can get!

Why?

Have you ever had some one who you know hates every inch of you?
You don't understand it , and yet you hate them back for their original hatred.
Now let me ask you this:

Say tomorrow that person was gone. Would you still be upset for their leaving? Would you still mourn for them?
It's a weird thing. I don't quite understand it. But out of nowhere something will bring tears to my eyes. He was no friend of mine! He didn't even like me! Why am I crying for him? Is it because he hurt my family? Because he caused them pain by how he left?

As I have mentioned before, I believe in the saying "Everything happens for a reason". And in that I think I might know the reason for him in my life. He came to make me a stronger person. His constant yelling and putting me down showed me that I can't please everyone, no matter how hard I try. This summer I learned to stand up for myself and not allow myself to get stepped on. I also learned what war can really do to a person and how destructive it is, even after the last gunshot.

As for the tears, the only thing I can think about that is, although it may have not been positive all the time, he was in my life for months, and I do miss him being around. And I hate the fact that he thought to leave like that. I don't wish that on anyone. I also think I just hurt to think of how my family and loved ones were hurt and are still hurting.

Sorry this blog was so down, just needed to get these thoughts out of mind for awhile.

One of the world's many evils!

It's about to boil over me.

I feel like a time bomb or a pot after you've added too much macaroni.

What's got me like this, you ask?

Well I'll tell you what it is.........IT'S STRESS!!!!!!

Why do we let this power take over us and effect our lives?

At the same time it is safe to say that our lives would probably be dull without it!

I always tell myself.....

Next year you'll be organize and there will be no stress.....

The next year I'm sitting in the middle of a nervous breakdown wondering where my plan went.

So in that, I have come to a conclusion.......

* Stress is unavoidable!

* It may pop up at anytime!

* And It will tear you apart!

Something must be done about procrastination.....I'll do it tomorrow

I will just go ahead and admit it now.....I am a procrastinator. I realized how bad I really was today. I completed a 4 page core paper 2 hours before it was due. I had 2 weeks to do it and and waited until the last possible moment. The sad thing is, I know I am not the only one who commits the crime of procrastination.

Why are we so likely to push back things until they can be pushed back no longer?

Are we just lazy as a society?

Is there anything we can do to improve the amount of procrastination that exists or will that itself become pushed back into the Things To Do pile?

Ha Ha! Very Funny....Wait What?

OK, I just got back from the comedian that came to campus, and I'm rather offended and ashamed of what comedy has come to these days. It seemed like the more raw or uncensored the joke was, the more people laughed. Does a joke have to involve sexual material for it to get a laugh? When he tried to feed the audience jokes that didn't involve these subjects, the laugh was not as strong. I don't understand this

Pigeon Forge is a small town in Tennessee that is a common vacation spot for my family. It is a tourist attracting town full of dinner theaters, and small clubs and shows. In the mix of attractions is a place called the Comedy BarnIt is a hilarious program that takes pride in the fact that the entire show is comprised of CLEAN comedy. Something the whole family can watch.
So although it is possible to get a laugh without compromising your morals, unclean comedy is becoming to popular for my liking and it only shows the state our country is really in.

Time traveling....Without a machine

Have you ever connected a song or movie to a moment in yourpast? Then when you encounter that item later, your mind flies back to that time and that feeling?It's common in my life. For instance just minutes before writing this post, I heard
"We Danced Anyway" by Deana Carter and was transported back eleven years to girl scouts. We were having an International Dinner . Each troop was a different country and had to make the food of that country. And for some reason that song was playing at one point during the meal. Loving the song, I got up and danced.

Hearing that song today, and becoming teleported back to that place confused me because that wasn't exactly a momumental moment in my history. It was just another day. Why does that song remind me of that point in my life?

On the other side of the spectrum, I can understand connecting songs or movies to BIG moments in life such as, your wedding song and so on. I remember my high school open house when I hear the songs played there. I think of my long lost childhood friend when I watch a film that was repeated constantly when we were together.

I guess, no matter the importance of the moment, songs and movies can help us connect to a time. And although I can't seem to find the reason for my remembering now, I'm sure there will be a day when I will.

Who am I?

If you've been reading this blog, you have had a chance to dive into my thoughts and respond on issues that have been bogging me down. But the question now is:
Do you know ME?
I understand that you are not going to know my life story just by reading some posts on the net. So I believe it is time to dwell in the craziness that is my life.

• I am 20 years old ( although people seem to think the oldest I could be is 16, which is so frustrating)
• I am the oldest of three children, I have a brother who is 16 and a sister who is 10.
• My parents are my heroes. My mom works her butt off just to put food on the table. She gets pushed down by life and manages to pick herself up and push on.She pushes her life aside for the needs of her children.Thanks for everything Mom! My dad is pushing through something life has thrown down at him years ago, something that plagues many people in this world. Through this struggle he has gained an extreme faith and has helped me in my own walk with God. And Thank You Dad!
• I am a relatively quiet person, however can be loud and crazy if the time calls for it!
• I have been told that I am not a very girly girl. However that assumption was shot down in a sense when I received 2nd runner up in my county's beauty pageant. I proved that I could be that kind of girl.
• I am a very family oriented person, so much so that I drive home every weekend just to have the slightest bit of time with the ones I love.
• I've been with the same guy for 3 years and each day I'm with him feels like the first date
• I've been running since I was twelve . It's the only sport I've ever felt accomplished in.


• I'm the kind of person who will get along with anyone who doesn't give me a reason to doubt their values
• My career goal in life is to become the English teacher all students love. I want to be "that goofy teacher". The one that is so off the wall and yet makes sense at the same time.

Well that's me in a nutshell. I hope this information will help you in understand the motive behind some of my ideas and feelings.

Changing the world....or is that possible?

You can be reading the newspaper, watching the news or even listen to the radio and you can see the devastation the world has come to. What if I told you a former Vietnam soldier stopped his own breath because he was ashamed of what he fought for? I mean do you blame him. I'm not saying it was a right move on his part but I at least have a slight understanding for the motive. Now we have to ask ourselves....What can we do? The answers to that questions are never ending, however are rarely put into action. It is one thing to say you can do it and another thing all together to do it. So in conclusion, I encourage all of you to go out and DO SOMETHING!!!!!!!
I don't care if it is something huge like dedicating all your time into volunteering at hospitals or homeless shelters, or if it is something small like giving an encouraging word to someone in need. I believe that it takes one person to start the rippling effect needed to change this entire world for the better.
So again I encourage you, Start making your effect now!..... Make this world something to be proud of, something worth fighting for!

Genesis.....What Does it Mean Now?

We all know the story: The snake tempted Eve, Eve ate the fruit, Adam then gave in and too ate the fruit from the tree of knowledge. Yet does this give others the right to assume that Eve is weaker simply because she was the first to submit to the temptation.

The Book of Genesis has stirred controversy in scholars for years and , I believe will continue to do so for awhile. Many men have used this text to prove that women are the weaker of the two. They prove their point by using a number of verses from this book.

Genesis 2:22

" And the rib which the Lord God had taken from the man made he a woman, and brought her unto man."

This somehow leads people to assume that because Eve was taken from Adam, women are not equal to man because we are merely part of them.

This next passage comes after the consuming of the apple. God is laying out his punishments to the first couple.

Genesis 3:16

" Unto the woman he said, I will greatly multiply thy sorrow and thy conception; in sorrow thou shalt bring forth children; and thy desire shall be to thy husband, and he shall rule over you"
This passage not only provides a reason for painful childbirth, but also a reason for mans control over women. In my Core 3 class we discussed this very passage. the professor asked the ladies in the classroom "What if your husband wanted you to be a stay home mother and do nothing else but cook and clean? Also keep this in mind" he continued, " If you disagreed with him he pulled out the bible, knowing you were a religious person and pointed to that passage."
I thought to myself....I am a very religious person, however, life has evolved since the life that was portrayed in the bible and I think God appreciates and respects that.

The Good...The Bad....and.....The Worse

What makes a good person? What attributes does one have to gain to become good? Frankly, I believe the goodness of a person depends on how that person handles their mistakes. Let's face it, We all mess up! We all do wrong! I know I've lied a time or two and done what I was told not to. But how did you handle the facing of your wrong doing. Did you quickly apologize and maybe start crying, or did you lie and try to push the blame on someone else. In my eyes, this is what determines the good from the bad and the bad from the worse.

(WARNING GETTING RELIGIOUS!!!!) In the Bible, it states that if we admit our sins and ask for forgiveness, we will be forgiven and will have a place in heaven Yet if we constantly ignore the fact that we have sinned and cover it up with more sins and lies, heaven might not be waiting for us in the end.

Granted I am not saying that a man who murders 15 people is a good person just because he admits he did wrong and asks for forgiveness. What I am saying is that he is a better than the man who killed 15 and didn't admit he did anything wrong. I know this can be a very fine line with many situations and opinions. I hoped I have not stepped on any ones toes and upset anyone. I just wanted to get my opinion out there. I am looking forward to getting some feedback from you.

Money: Friend or Foe?

Society today thrives on it, people rely on it and fight for it. It has the ability to bring men to the top of the game fast and to the bottom even faster. Why do we place so emphasis, so much importance on these green pieces of paper. By placing so much on this, we loose the other items of importance such as our faith and our family.
My hopes (although I know are long lost) are that one day this world derives some sort of plan that frees us from the hold that money has on our lives. If only there was a way to judge the wealth of a person solely based on the content of that person's heart and not on the weight of their wallet.
To go on further, have you realized that those with money are often those with the coldest hearts. And those in the middle to lower classes are the ones with the strong and honorable hearts. Also once you take a man who is of a pure heart and give a good amount of money and power, he begins to react in ways he never did before.
I'm sure you have heard the story of King Midis, in where everything he touched turned to gold, well I believe money has a similar effect on people. Everything it touches changes, most of the time for the worst.
So the next time you receive money as a gift or reward, think about this. Ask yourself, Am I going to let this small green piece of paper change the way I live my life?

Hypocrites = Liars

Let me go right out and say it. I very much dislike (hate!) hypocrites. And frankly, I don't quite understand them. I mean to me they are nothing but liars in disguise. Well, think about it! They yell at someone for doing something and then do it themselves. They are in turn lying to not only the person that they are yelling at; they are lying to themselves and to God!
Now for some examples to prove my point further:
Example 1: I worked at an amusement park over the summer. There is a rule for the employees which bands all use of cell phones while on the clock. There is a supervisor who is constantly on his phone and yet he writes up others for the same crime! And also, his "friends" or simply put the people who go to his parties will text him while they are at work and he will say nothing!
So I ask you this, do you think he is a liar in this situation.
Of course you probably know my answer judging by the title of this post. See in this situation, he is also lying and bringing down his place of employment!
Example 2: I run cross country here at school. There is a rule that states all runner should where a shirt at all times when they run. which means that girls cannot run in sports bras. The unofficial captain of my team yelled at a fellow teammate last year for rolling her shirt up past her belly. Yet this morning after the run she took off her shirt and walked to breakfast. Now let me add this little tidbit in there. I know that if she had seen someone else doing what she did I know she would have yelled at them!
Now I'll ask you the same question, Do you think she is a liar in the situation?
I let you answer that one yourself but thank you for letting me rant and rave about this for awhile and as always I am open to your opinions.

Dreams

Now a days there are tons of books that interpret our dreams and their meanings. But what if we are over analyzing them. What if our dreams just simply serve as a warning or a display of the unknown. The other night, I had a dream of someone I was trying to forget. He had hurt my family just the week before and I wanted him erased from my memory. Yet there he was smack dab in the middle of my night's sleep. I wondered why this had occurred. Why was he there? Why had my self conscience picked him out of all of the people in my life? The next day I found all the answers ( or at least the questions concerning the dream). The someone from my dream left my life in a devastating way. Was the dream a way to warn me of what was to occur? To further understand it I borrowed my roommate's dream book. It states that if you are dreaming of someone whom you would not anticipate, it indicates the need to have greater understanding of the way you relate to men. Now this sounds crazy! You mean to tell me I dreamt of him because I need to understand men?!. I believe this dream was given to me to resemble the importance of this man. I think it was there to help me realize the importance in knowing him. So I'm going to take this moment to get a little religious on you. I would like to thank God for bringing him into my life and for giving me that dream to realize the greatness in knowing him.

Dealing with today

Dealing with Today, what a perfect way to describe not only my life (particularly the happenings of today), but the lives of society in general. Isn't that what we all do, is deal, get by. Well what if I'm done with simply dealing, simply getting by with my life. Today made me realize that life is not something to deal with, it's something to, well live and enjoy. If we simply Deal with life and forget to live it we've gone nowhere. And, I mean, I don't want you to think I'm trying to preach to you. I just wanted to give you something to think about. I'm just one of those people that believes everything happens for a reason and I hate to think that reason is for us to simply get by with life. Of course I am welcome to your thoughts and opinions and yes this very well could be all my emotions flooding into the computer at the moment. I just felt it was important to get that out and allow it to dwell in your mind for awhile so I could get it out of mine.