A Student’s Solitude

Solitude is like being the ghost in the crowd.
Screaming, Screeching, Shouting,
desperate to be heard.
Yet, my words seem to also be translucent and transparent.

What does it take to be noticed?
What does it take to make them see
that I am just as good as them,
just as smart,
just as talented,
just as qualified for the job of life?

What gives them the right to disregard me?
To treat me like week old milk?
To walk past me like I was a mutt at the pound that gets passed up for the puppies?
To declare me as someone undeserving of compassion and care?

Tell me,
What is wrong with me?
Tell me,
What can I change?
Tell me,
How can I make you happy?
Because that’s what it’s all about right?

Well I am tired of living my life for you!
I’m tired of trying to fit in!
I’m tired changing who I am!

So I have decided,
if you don’t like me,
and you have a good reason.
I will respect you.
But if you just dislike me simply because I’m quiet,
Then I’ll say “Right back at ya!”

No rules, No schedule, Just Running!

I decided that this year I would give my body a break and not run track. This decision is turning out to be a great choice on my part. The reason for this is that I can now regain the full joy of running again.

I realized that I had lost it in the cross season. I became too worried in what my teammates were thinking of me, or asking myself if I was going too slow and wondering if coach was going to have to stop me.




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Now that I'm on my own I can run just for me. Just to run. I can go as fast or as slow as I want. I can wear what I want without wondering what the others would think. I'm having fun again!

Yet, the downfall is the fact that I miss being part of a team.
I miss being part of a unit. I miss the various people and stories. I feel that without track the have no reason to hang out with me.







So that leaves me to make a choice.

Do I choose avoid being "Trackless" the rest of my years here?

Or do I participate in Cross Country and leave the track time to regain the "fun of the sport"?

Money: Friend or Foe?

Society today thrives on it, people rely on it and fight for it. It has the ability to bring men to the top of the game fast and to the bottom even faster. Why do we place so emphasis, so much importance on these green pieces of paper. By placing so much on this, we loose the other items of importance such as our faith and our family.
My hopes (although I know are long lost) are that one day this world derives some sort of plan that frees us from the hold that money has on our lives. If only there was a way to judge the wealth of a person solely based on the content of that person's heart and not on the weight of their wallet.
To go on further, have you realized that those with money are often those with the coldest hearts. And those in the middle to lower classes are the ones with the strong and honorable hearts. Also once you take a man who is of a pure heart and give a good amount of money and power, he begins to react in ways he never did before.
I'm sure you have heard the story of King Midis, in where everything he touched turned to gold, well I believe money has a similar effect on people. Everything it touches changes, most of the time for the worst.
So the next time you receive money as a gift or reward, think about this. Ask yourself, Am I going to let this small green piece of paper change the way I live my life?