My Reality Check

Last night I had a scary revelation, which I guess I had already known, it just was not very clear until that moment:
The World is full of Pressure!!!!
And what got me to finally expect this fact was my panic attack in Walmart yesterday!..... I needed some items so I made the trip with my roomie. As I was shopping, I decided it would be a smart thing to check my checking balance. That's what triggered the attack! I had only $9 in my account!!!!!.....I was floored! I had been keeping a close eye on my account! How did this happen!? Luckily,my boyfriend had paid me the phone bill earlier that day so I had cash on me. But for some reason, I was really dizzy and couldn't really walk. It was really scary. For the first time I felt how short my life could actually be! I also realized that by constantly reacting to the pressure life throws at me, I am only making that time shorter.

The Faith Within

I haven't done this before, but I thought it might be nice to get some of my work on the blog. And I dying to hear what is thought of this poem because I'm a little unsure myself! It's called "The Faith Within"

I am at your side,

although you ignore me.

I am here to guide,

although you do not follow.

I'm stuck in your head,

no matter how hard you try to erase me.

I hear all of what is said

and I am there to rethink the wrong

Although you may deny me,

I assure you I will never fade.

All I want is for you to see

your faith within.

So there it is .........now give me the truth!!!

Why so shy?

Everyone has that one thing they would change about themselves. For me it would have to be my confidence around others.
I don't like that it takes me so long to open up to someone. Last year someone even held that fact against me. She said "You've been around us for almost 6 months now and you still won't talk!"
I can't explain it. And I can't really change it. I guess we all have a quality about us that is so embedded in our system that no matter how hard we try, we cannot remove it.

My Halloweeny mental block!

This blog is generally focused on the spilling of my thoughts on to the screen. But this time, I need your help! I'm taking my sister around trick-or-treating for Halloween and I have no idea what to dress up as!

In the past, I have taken on the roles of Wednesday Adams and a lady in a masquerade ball. However, for some reason, this year my ideas have come up short. I would appreciate any thoughts you could share on the issue. Although, you have to keep in my that all costume must be family appropriate. I am grateful to all the help I can get!

Why?

Have you ever had some one who you know hates every inch of you?
You don't understand it , and yet you hate them back for their original hatred.
Now let me ask you this:

Say tomorrow that person was gone. Would you still be upset for their leaving? Would you still mourn for them?
It's a weird thing. I don't quite understand it. But out of nowhere something will bring tears to my eyes. He was no friend of mine! He didn't even like me! Why am I crying for him? Is it because he hurt my family? Because he caused them pain by how he left?

As I have mentioned before, I believe in the saying "Everything happens for a reason". And in that I think I might know the reason for him in my life. He came to make me a stronger person. His constant yelling and putting me down showed me that I can't please everyone, no matter how hard I try. This summer I learned to stand up for myself and not allow myself to get stepped on. I also learned what war can really do to a person and how destructive it is, even after the last gunshot.

As for the tears, the only thing I can think about that is, although it may have not been positive all the time, he was in my life for months, and I do miss him being around. And I hate the fact that he thought to leave like that. I don't wish that on anyone. I also think I just hurt to think of how my family and loved ones were hurt and are still hurting.

Sorry this blog was so down, just needed to get these thoughts out of mind for awhile.

One of the world's many evils!

It's about to boil over me.

I feel like a time bomb or a pot after you've added too much macaroni.

What's got me like this, you ask?

Well I'll tell you what it is.........IT'S STRESS!!!!!!

Why do we let this power take over us and effect our lives?

At the same time it is safe to say that our lives would probably be dull without it!

I always tell myself.....

Next year you'll be organize and there will be no stress.....

The next year I'm sitting in the middle of a nervous breakdown wondering where my plan went.

So in that, I have come to a conclusion.......

* Stress is unavoidable!

* It may pop up at anytime!

* And It will tear you apart!

Something must be done about procrastination.....I'll do it tomorrow

I will just go ahead and admit it now.....I am a procrastinator. I realized how bad I really was today. I completed a 4 page core paper 2 hours before it was due. I had 2 weeks to do it and and waited until the last possible moment. The sad thing is, I know I am not the only one who commits the crime of procrastination.

Why are we so likely to push back things until they can be pushed back no longer?

Are we just lazy as a society?

Is there anything we can do to improve the amount of procrastination that exists or will that itself become pushed back into the Things To Do pile?

Ha Ha! Very Funny....Wait What?

OK, I just got back from the comedian that came to campus, and I'm rather offended and ashamed of what comedy has come to these days. It seemed like the more raw or uncensored the joke was, the more people laughed. Does a joke have to involve sexual material for it to get a laugh? When he tried to feed the audience jokes that didn't involve these subjects, the laugh was not as strong. I don't understand this

Pigeon Forge is a small town in Tennessee that is a common vacation spot for my family. It is a tourist attracting town full of dinner theaters, and small clubs and shows. In the mix of attractions is a place called the Comedy BarnIt is a hilarious program that takes pride in the fact that the entire show is comprised of CLEAN comedy. Something the whole family can watch.
So although it is possible to get a laugh without compromising your morals, unclean comedy is becoming to popular for my liking and it only shows the state our country is really in.